SAPATOS

Noon,ang “least favorite” ko na parte ng katawan ko ay ang mga paa ko.
1.Sobrang hirap maghanap ng sapatos lalo na ung may heels na walang glitters o unicorn 🀣
Naalala ko noon,dahil need sa ojt namin sa PNU na kahit paano ay may konting heels ung shoes napilitan ako bumili ng may heels pero may tatak na Barbie sa ilalim ng suwelas πŸ˜…

  1. Karaniwan size 5 ung mga nasa mall,kaya lang size 4.5 ung paa ko,alanganin sa size 4 at sa size 5.Kaya hindi ko masyado favorite ung shoe section sa mall,nakakafrustrate kasi πŸ˜…
  2. Naalala ko nung college,dahil kailangan may heels,napilitan ako suotin ung sapatos ni ate na pinasakan ko ng sandamakmak na papel para sumikip.Mga ilang araw ko din nagamit tapos biglang bumuka habang naglalakad ako papunta sa sunod na klase,lumabas ung mga papel 🀣 Buti na lang tapat lang ng school ung dorm namin,nakakuha agad ng tsinelas para hindi ako maka-absent.

Pero ngayon,may isang naging dahilan para mahalin ko  ung paa ko-iyon ay ang kakayahan kong pumunta sa kahit saan ko gustuhin 😊 (gala lang pala gusto🀣)

Naranasan ko na magsaklay nung elemetary,6 na buwan kasi nabalian ako ng buto sa binti at kailangan sementuhin para makarecover.
Mahirap kapag hindi mo nagagamit ang bahagi ng katawan mo sa dapat na ginagawa nito.

Anuman ang mayroon tayo ngayon ay pahalagahan natin bago pa ito mawala.

May dahilan ang lahat ng bagay na mayroon tayo kaya matuto tayo magpasalamat kaysa sa magreklamo.
Para naman sa mga bagay na wala o hindi talaga pwede, matutong tanggapin na may mga bagay na wala tayong kontrol o hindi na pwede baguhin.

Beauty from the Ashes

I was and still being bullied.

Ang lalim ng salin sa wikang Filipino ng salitang “bullying”-panlilibak,panghuhusga,pang-aapi at pang-aabuso gaya din ito nang lalim ng mga sugat na iniiwan sa taong nakakaranas nito.

Simula bata,naranasan kong tuksuhin-pandak,liit,dwende,mahal/mura o kaya unano.
Madalas mga bata ung nang-aasar,kapag matanda kasi idadaan lang sa pagtingin sa akin mula ulo hanggang matunaw ako πŸ˜…
Noon,pumapatol pa ako 🀣
Ngayon,hindi na 😊

Hindi dahil pagod na akong pumatol at ipagtanggol ang sarili ko,kung hindi dahil tanggap at mahal ko na kung sino ako talaga.

I hope that like me,your pain will empower you to encourage other people, to accept what is unchangeable and to love the One who made you,just the way you are πŸ™‚

tHrEAD

May mga pagkakataon na pakiramdam ko bigla na lang pipitik ung pisi ko.


Kapag nararamdaman ko na iyon,lumalabas ako para makalanghap ng ibang hangin,madalas dalawang oras lang naman ako nawawala sa bahay kasi paalis pa lang ako,tinatanong na ni mama ung oras ng uwi ko


Hindi dahil palagi tayong nasa bahay at pati ung trabaho naten ay nasa bahay na,hindi ibig sabihin na ligtas na din tayo sa mga stress ng buhay.


Mabuti ang Lord at araw-araw,bago ako matulog ay binibigyan Nya ako ng dahilan para magpasalamat at magpatuloy sa buhay ng may ngiti sa labi.


Sa nagbasa nito hanggang dulo,feel free to message me kapag kailangan mo, I am willing to pray for you.

Hindi ka nag-iisa

Quiet Time

The past few weeks have been very tough.

My love for reading books keep me sane.

I have learned to follow some few steps for me to be able to collect my thoughts.

In this uncertain time,it is very important to really ponder on things once in a while.

Step 1: (Stop) It is really hard to pause for a while in this fast-paced world. Everyone is always in hurry to go and get their goals. When we stop,we can evaluate on things in front of us.

Step 2: (Wait) Patience is really a virtue we should learn for a lifetime. It is one of the most hardest thing to do,but the most rewarding one.

Step 3: (Consult) I hope that you still have connections to one or two trusted friends besides from your family. We need to consult people around us so that we can have other perspectives.

Step 4: (Pray) The most vital thing in this pandemic.

Step 5: (Decide) When you have gathered enough strength,decide. It is not an easy task to do but if you want to go forward in life,some decisions are needed. We are making almost a hundred decisions everyday,from the moment we wake up (if you will get up or extend a little more) until we go to bed. Make sure that major decisions must be think about thoroughly.

Step 6: (Act) As the saying goes,action speak louder than words. Even if we have planned again and again,but do not act about it,nothing will happen.Sometimes,actions are needed so that your life will get a little better

Step 7: (Adjust) Things will not always go our way and we have to accept that. We have to learn to adjust in the current situation. Being flexible also mean being mature enough to be responsible in your life

OVERwhelmed

I have not posted anything for quite a while.

School works have been demanding last few days.

But one thing that really made me a lot busier was joining give away contests on Instagram.

I do have a Facebook account but because it is more toxic,I’ve rarely read my newsfeed.

Last year, I started joining different Instagram give aways. One reason is to lessen the stress level and anxiety that the pandemic is giving me.

I’ve won my first give-away contest last December and I have made new set of friends from the organizer of the said event.

This year,I have written one of my 2021 prayer request that I hope that I will win again.

And my prayer was answered,not just once but three times. I have won on consecutive months since January.

My heart is full and I know I have to pay it forward.

Receipts

Living from paycheck to paycheck.

I’ve been a government employee and this year marks my 10th year in this industry.

I am so proud for all my coteachers who have been supporting their children’s education or for my case,my parents.

It is really a tough job with a tight salary.

As the saying goes,teaching is a passion,not a job

But to tell you frankly,passion is not enough.

When the going gets tough,when the food is not enough, when the bills are nearing their due date,your heart may fail too.

Thank God He has given me the drive enough to push me into my limits and conquer it.

Teaching is one job I really love but I hope educators like me will be well compensated enough in the next few years.

REFLECTion

This time,last year,no one knew about how the pandemic would drastically changed the way we appreciate life.

Quarantine made some people appreciate the small things that they did not notice before.

A lot of time spent at home pushed people to write down their thought or even blog or vlog about it.

The workaholics was required to stay at home and some them value the rest that they never knew they needed.

Family bonding got a deeper meaning because no one really knew who will catch the virus next.

This virus that caused a pandemic had brought a lot of change in the lives of the people around the globe.

I hope that you who are reading this was able to take a little time off to spend time alone and breathe.

The virus is still around and I hope that whatever comes next,you will become better than who you are before the pandemic started.

friENDS

When I was younger,I was in a large group of friends called M.A.F.I.A

Most of us were classmates since elementary,10 boys and 7 girls.

We treat each other as a part of our family.Even if we separated ways during our college days,we still had the time to have our annual reunion

When we started our own careers and most of us started their own little family,things changed little by little.

Responsibilities came in our way and we rarely had the time to catch up.

We also found different sets of friends that we’ve grown to be closer as the time goes by.

As I was writing this,I was completely estranged to the set of friend I had before.

Maturity and experiences made me chose to live a different path away from them.

I will always support them,clapping for every success and shedding a tear for their downfall.

But now,I have chosen a life and a set of friends whom I can say that have celebrated me for who I am.

friday Freeday!

Spotify made me dance tonight!

We had a seminar earlier on how to use some apps for our online class.It has been straight three days that we were reporting in our school.It is tiring because we were not used to face to face since the pandemic started.

My client,a former student,who has a resin-art business who asked me to photoshoot her pieces dropped by to get her stuff because I was done taking the shots that she needed.

Another former student who had a new takoyaki stall also brought me some to photoshoot and at the same time,promote it on my socmed.

This day was indeed a busy day and I was happy to let go of the stress tonight. I’ve turned on my Spotify and dance with Pink’s Raise Your Glass.

It would have been better if I have a wine and a cheese board but still,I was able to enjoy myself. It’s been a surprise for me that I can party even though I am all alone.It feels so liberating and freeing at the same time.

foCUS

I love doing a lot of things,all at the same time

I love being busy the whole day that I don’t have time to get anxious about a lot of things (like being NBSB at the age of 35).

I love what I do but I know I still need to learn how to manage my time.

Time for checking my student’s modules.

Time to finish the product shoot for a client.

Time for my daily quiet moments with God.

Time to realize that I also need rest.

Keeping myself busy makes me avoid some of the reality.

Reality that I need to face because it will never leave my thought unless I deal with it.

It is a fact that we can never serve master all at the same time,with the same amount of attention that is needed for each one.

One must realize that we have a limited and we can never go back to the time that has already passed.

I felt sad when I have realized that I was not able to write an entry yesterday.

But it will not stop me writing from deep within.